We cant date

So shawn and i came to the conclusion we cant break up ever no matter what it ever was we would want to break up for because we cant date anyone but eachother. We would never want to break up, but hypathetically if we did, no one would want us besides eachother. He has his things and i have mine. No one would be able to tolerate our crazy things but eachother. we are the best of friends and so much in love its crazy. we fight like were married, but wouldnt leave eachother for absolutely anything. I love him and he loves me.

My current hair dilemma..

I am one of those girls who care about my hair SO much! i am getting my hair done today and i am oober worried about doing it. I had a talk with shawn last night and for the last week or so about what colour to dye it. i have always been blonde. but i am so sick of paying so much money to dye my hair, just do dye it a few weeks later. so i decided i wanted to be brunette. shawn isnt to sure about it. he thinks i should go all over blonde, but he doesnt understand that with the highlights and roots and brown in the underneathe of my hair, it will turn out a bunch of colours. i think i finally decided brown but i dont even know. I enjoy being one of the three blonde girls in the kononuk family lol. i dont know, it will be a big surprise for everyone whatever i choose. i just hope everyone likes it. i dont think i will be able to completely give up blonde tho....

Things that bug me..

I really hate when girls do some of the things they do.
A few of my friends at school are going out for lunch and skipping last period. i usually go out for lunch with them everyday. they didnt say one word to me and just assumed i knew they were ditching me. I really hate when people do that. all they have to do is tell me they dont want to hang out with me instead of ditching me.

The Kononuk Family.

To help better understand things, you must know me other family, i treat just as my own :)

Heather Kononuk, the mom, ADORABLE! she surprises me everytime i see her, theres always some crazy thing i didnt know she did that shawn tells me about and im like WOW your mom is so cool :), not to mention she has a simply wonderful voice!

Mark Kononuk, the macgyver, he always knows how to fix everything! hes so smart and can "macgyver" anything from anything. He hunts like my boyfriend and its so cute when i listen to them talk about hunting and fishing lol!

Scott Kononuk, the quiet brother, i dont see him very often, besides dinner or when he needs to borrow something from shawn lol but hes always nice. its adorable when he holds his daughter cause i see the beautiful connection between daughter and daddy.

Taylor Hoit, the other soon-to-be Kononuk, Shes so sweet and caring. She always thinks about everyone else and does everything in the world for scott. she reminds me so much of me how she is with scott. Since scott and shawn have relative tempers, we understand eachother lol. Shes the cutest girl in the world and always has a smile on her face to cheer everyone when there sad.

Joyceeee:P, the newest member of the kononuk family, adorable and always makes me smile when i see her. i know she cant talk but she says so much with her bright blue eyes. Always in her mommys arms.

And last but not least, Shylo, the dog. He always steals everyones shoes so they cant find the other one, and hes full of energy. Shawns second brother.

A best friend..

I have come to the conclusion i dont have a best friend. I have friends, school friends, friends when i need homework things, friends that will listen when i have drama in my life. but no best friend. I was sitting at lunch today when it finally hit me. I need a best friend. my friend from accross the table said, well i dont have a best friend either. im not alone. i wish i did tho. i used to. her name was Emilie. we have been friends since birth but one thing led to another and now were not friends anymore. stupid i know... its not like im a loner, i feel very popular cause i know everyone in my school basically .. (everyone that matters) but i just dont have a BEST friend.. NOW, im on a hunt for one lol.

Trying to talk to my boyfriend..

As simple as there little minds are, mine is very stubborn. He will listen to me while doing other things so he can pretend to listen, but ignore me at the same time. He wants to stop fighting, i get that part from him, but he does the stupidest things to make me angry. I dont even get it. Like for instance all i told him was i wanted a sorry for last night,, but he has to turn it into this big thing, bluh bluh..
Like if your in a relationship and your partner asks you for something, you do it cause you love them. but in shawns eyes, i do what he says, he doesnt have to do what i say. stupid i know. but o well.. hopefully things wil get better later, now hes ignoring me and swaring and playing a new stupid video game. Who knows... one day he will click in.

The little things...

Shawn is very bad at taking hints. All night i wanted to talk to him and when i get a chance to, he goes hunting, then i get another chance, and he going to tim hortons like every other night. then i get another chance, and hes going to his friends to watch a show. It only makes me upset because he told me saturday night we couldnt see eachother monday because he was busy. I dont care what he does, but i hate being let down. and when i wait all night to talk to him, and he just keeps doing things, it would have been nice to know from the start i wouldnt be able to.

I know its a stupid thing to be mad about but i really dont ask much. I dont talk to him all day and today i had a pretty terrible day in the first place. Maybe just the one thing to make me feel better was to talk to him and i wasnt able to. So im going to bed upset. I know its cliche to say "hes just a boy, and they dont really understand the ways of women", but sometimes i talk myself into believing he does. I dont care about the big things, like presents, i care about things like.. i love you messages, and knowing how his day went, and telling him when im upset. i just need him to listen and maybe pick up on those days when i need him most.